Soul split

My soul is split
into two parts
one is here
the other is there

When I am here
I am no more there
when I am there
I miss here so much

My soul becomes less
where it goes
is anyone's guess
I feel soul -less

The dichotomy between
the two sides of the sea
can I even swim
without drowning?

I run like a headless hen
the last day here
trying to do everything
nothing works

So if  I did less here
and more there
then maybe it would be
a stressless passage

across the wide ocean
an endless gulf
between there and here
I belong nowhere