Trial?

another sleepless
predawn - drawn
upon a weakened body
resistance nil
a perpetual state
of deceptive fatigue
wanting nothing
but
to rest my cranium
upon the pillow
alas -
instead I sit
and mourn my unbliss
getting angrier
at myself
for not having
my serenity intact
and my mind cooking
overtime
one more hour and
it is sun-up
...zzz