Thursday, August 27, 2020

A free dystopia of today

Dismay at the turn 
of the underlying
hatred and bigotry
of the presumed
free and great country
It is neither free
nor great - it  only
pretends - lying 
and cheating is
the name of the game
the more you can
get the other down
the better - a bitter
non- reconciliation 
A land - where
the one percent owns
more than 75 percent
and the 99 share
25 percent - numbers speak!
No health care for all
and abortions laws are
tightening in states
and guns are being
used daily in the name
of the right to bear arms
A nation where 
a two party system
works - not -
gerrymandering
felons who have  
done their duty in jail
cannot vote -
redrawing boundaries
the postal service
to be meddled with
A state where you keep
mind control of masses
by keeping the television
on 24/7 - no time
to think for one self
let alone be curious
as to why - how -when
where and especially who
A kingdom where
sexes - colors - races
are divided and put against
each other in subtle ways
and the information
is being curbed - by
quietly silencing 
the vigilant observers
who try their best
and keep on harping
that life on this island
is not what it should be
but a non-functioning
dystopia of a magnitude
in the name of a free
and functioning society. 
 


Thursday, August 13, 2020

Fiber knowledge



For the first time ever when
Lying in the quiet chamber
I saw my childhood’ s Torquemada
And realized that for once
My old body’s reaction to
Not relaxing was obviously
Massaged into the hate and horror
I felt for a therapist’s hands
Knowing the necessity
Of my body’s embalming.
One day I do hope to relax
But alas not quite yet!


Tuesday, August 11, 2020

Conundrum - acrostic poem

 Covid-19

Ongoing

new

unstoppable

not to be trifled with

deadly

reigns the world

un-2020

maybe 2021 vaccine

Monday, August 10, 2020

Gaia proudly/sadly says

Storm - storm - storm
away with the debris
flush out everything
needed and unnecessary
mother Gaia decides:
to not have respect
for my earthly needs 
I just send you winds
waters and disease
on top of nozzles
golden sand will fly
only - pangolins
will live because
they unlike most
carry the plague
but will not suffer 
from the vira they spread
and the cock roaches will
have a dream of a day

I have given you 
a home - a house of life
disrespect is what I got -
the early industrial age
started in earnest
You forgot that I
am the stronger than
the living on my planet
but you try to defy me -
hence we all shall hurt!





Tuesday, July 28, 2020

Commentary on feeling blah...

Anguished angered
anticipating disaster
brain fog - lack of incentive
that's what politics do
to anyone impotent
without power 

Despondent distressed
desperate hopelessness
brain dead - no desire
that's what lackluster impetus
does to a person 
without authority

Tormented troubled
trusting tribulation
brain cloud - loss of a mind
that's what strain overload
does to an old woman
without hope 


    

Monday, July 20, 2020

To push or not to push

To push or not to push
to beat around a bush
who am I to nudge
when I don't budge
not an inch
in a pinch

To urge or not to urge
my wish to not merge
with everyone else
just strain the belts
no way not
on the dot

Finally-

To need or not to need
a push/urge I not heed
strong as an ox
smart as a cox
but mayhab
all Ahab

Friday, July 10, 2020

Une mémé honnête

Un jour pas si loin d'ici
je reverrai mon petit eden
autant que je veuille fuir
de ce pays maintenant
il n'y a aucun possibilité
de me retrouver ici
pendant des ans prochains

Ma tristesse - et mon âme -
se trouve sans rien
qu'obligation familiale

Vous - les autres -
au moins la plupart -
je suppose - aimez
bien la convention

de plus en plus
le protocole n'attend
aucun espoir projetant
subir une vie sexuelle
manquante et nulle
-
avant de mourir -
je veux être libre de
décorum bourgeois
vivre dans mon monde
d'une sensation corporelle
même si l'âge de raison
est dépassé fatalement
-
dans les banlieues
avec les petits maisons
ou la vie se passe
derrière les portes
assez insidieusement
peut-être je ne suis
la seule qui désire
d'autre chose plus gaie
même si je suis
une vieille mémé.


Thursday, July 09, 2020

Massage message

Old worn body on the bench
alas no longer a young wrench
but a sedate gramma to boot
sometimes doesn't give a hoot
however in the massage room
I cannot shut the world's gloom
My thoughts twirl and whirl
from oldhood to a young girl
jumbled - mumbled oddball twists
while the masseur  is on my wrists
If I could for once fully relax
stop my thoughts in their tracks
I would get the massage's message
that would be its eloquent passage.



Tuesday, July 07, 2020

Waa!

New visual theme for my blog
to pick or not to pick
that is indeed the ?mark!
What I use this for
is nothing but a drop
of twirling electrons
poking in my right/left
hemispheres of a decaying
brain of an angry
but seemingly calm
old broad brought up
to be a sedate "good" girl.
I spit on this image
rarely to be avoided
but my consoeurs
I encourage as much
as possible - too late
for my genes - --
No new views from me.

Monday, July 06, 2020

Humanity bravo

Bubonic plague returns
( it was probably only subdued)
Corona vira of certain kinds
Sars, Mers, Covid-19,
The Spanish Flue and the yearly dittos
What else ?  wars and murders galore
Humans fight within/outside themselves
It is still a miracle people want kids
And they are born into what calamities
Poverty - pollution - revolution - depravity
I looked at two of my grandchildren
Today- marveling at the human optimism
On a hot humid summer day where
Hidden airborne droplets could get you!

Thursday, July 02, 2020

Yggdrasil revisited

The Vølva weaved her willful thoughts
again around in her inner sanctuary
near her wonderful old Yggdrasil
the tree she could see herself dance
Around to a cosmic cancan rhythm
 - generation upon generation -
well to be brutally honest what
she could not see was her mother's face
but her father's stood out - odd
because when he died she - the Vølva
 - hated him - but her own authentic
- no not authentic - but baseline life
she realized that there is a double
for every act - a counter act
- within that opposition a debate opens
and she would have to ask herself
whether she understood the actions
of her progenitors or rather could
she or anyone judge another human
for what their genes entailed - enclosed
embraced and more or less entwined
let it be understood that only yourself
not anyone else could only be responsible
as an advancing adult within his or her
timeframe - timeline or space in time
for his or her own actions and behaviors
if you did not have any appeasing facts
working against your body or mind
With what right did she have - only
she had been a young naive chick -
- empathy not sympathy was what
she had found as she grew older
The Vølva Vigga decided to accept
Her abject feelings from that time
And forgive but not forget the deeds
Because if your mind rejected
These debilitating daft sentiments
Of yesteryear then she the waning Vølva
Would be a fake half human being
Accepting and acknowledging
Those youthful jousting thoughts
part for the millions and millions
Of wired wounds - but without those
she would not have been who she is
Today and all her DNA with chemicals
would not have lightened up
as her father's face reclaimed her
just as she was lurking lecherously
around yonder Yggdrasil wanting
waiting to swish and twist and just
do what she wanted without postulating
whether or not or why or wherefore
that she was guilty of something other
than a zest for life - embracing
her heritage of genetic matter mostly
and accepting herself as she truly is
a blazing being with definite desires
without  shame or blame laughing
along the little stream of unconscious
urbane urges twirling twisting
hers and her archaic tree's twigs in air
hoping that she would one day
again cuddle in her vulva and vagina
the desired handout or phallus
not under the trunk but the off shoots
of the tree of life in her little
hiding place somewhere in a wooded
edenescent vine-filled backdrop
Vigga just pushed herself violently
to never let go of Yggdrasil's drive
dreaming all that she Vigga the Vølva
died not in vain having dared live
her life during these weird whiles
wholeheartedly and as honest
as a Venetian quattrocento courtisan.


 







Friday, June 19, 2020

Juneteenth

I am no poet
and not even a wordsmith
but I am an angry old lady
maybe only a broad
because why on earth
does stupidity reign supreme
in this land  of the "free"
No one is ever free of anything
except the nihilists
and even a so-called denier
is not alone in the society
Maybe I am not as good
as I should be but - fuck -
nobody is - it is the human
in us all

I am no bard
and not even a lyricist
but I am an enraged old gal
perhaps only a dame
furious at why the youngsters do
not rebel more
in the land of the free
I am white European with a
privilege that I did not know
I had - having a visible handicap
so whatever bla bla bla
Not as supportive as I could be
trying harder
but nobody is - it is the the biped
in us all

But just because
I am no singer I squeal
that black lives matter
yellow/red /blue/brown
mixed with genes
all lives matter
learning to hate comes early
history or not be damned
"a damsel in distress"
in Central Park will
not excuse her behavior
nor will any police violence
be accepted -  this so-called
country of the "Free" is
not free at all.


Sunday, June 14, 2020

Masks

A mask party a la
Marcel Marceau
Dance around
In a park nude
With a cover
Over your nose
And silent mouth
Saying nothing
Observing only
Your fellow people
As they twirl as well
In the twilight zone
Of true  fairytales
Letting yourself
Be looked at
Realizing that
We are nothing
But humans
What we say is
How we act
As dancers
In life’s ballet
Only  everyone
Does it differently
Grayish bluish
Beamlight on
The specters
In mouth/nose tutus
Twirling the batons
And humping
Undetectably on
Two sticks
It is surely
A mascarade
Of mummanity

Saturday, June 13, 2020

Too easy

Too easy to kill
In a country where
Every citizen has
A right to arm
Her- or himself
Where the police
Only needs a
High school diploma
Not even a
Psycho evaluation

Too easy to maim
Your fellow man
Or citizen
And with a shrewd
Lawyer one can
Get away with
Murder or privilege
As long as you
Are white or wealthy
Of any color

Too easy to bully
Anyone different
From yourself
Or your peers
It happens everyday
To the underdogs
Kill maim destroy
Humans and their
Self confidence
It’s easily taught

A unique haiku

my purple penis
filled from the usb port
a woman in bloom

Thursday, June 11, 2020

NOW in the US

A black man died of being chocked
by a white police man
repeat ad nauseam
A black woman being shot in her bed
by a white policeman
repat ad nauseam
A white woman's yell for help
in a park - perceived afraid
repeat ad nauseam
police grabbing money and drugs
off people after arresting them
repeat ad nauseam
poor immigrants thrown in jail
because of no papers
repeat ad nauseam
fresh not contaminated water
in Flint and poor neighborhoods
repeat ad nauseam
poverty kills gives illnesses
and fight for life
repeat ad nauseam
and the poor schools not
getting support and good teaching
repeat ad nauseam

--ad nauseam--
--ad nauseam--
---d nausea---
-----nause-----
-----noise-----
---screams---
-can't breathe-
---silence---


quiche quitted?

I forgot how to make a quiche
does that mean - Alzheimer's?
yet I did not bother to look it up
thought I could cook it -
the repast was different
(just as good I might add)
but not the quiche I dreamt off
redo it correctly
or  reframe the words
not as many eggs and no bacon
but ham and mushroom
and the dough was ok -
did not measure that either
can I forgive myself for
forgetting the recipe
although I never use it
the way it is supposed to?
for once -  a quiche acquitted!

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Tonnerre nocturne

Dans le climat tempéré
Il change petit à petit 
Sans que personne 
le sache d’une année 
A l’autre tout un coup 
on est dans le subtropical 

Dans une vie femme 
L’échange tombe
D’une année à l’autre
D’une jeunâtes vers
La vieillesse plus
Ou moins pénible 

Entre les deux temps 
Le chaleur et le feu
Rend possible tout
Qui reste mystérieux 
Et humain au sein
D’un tonnerre nocturne 

Sunday, June 07, 2020

Brutal

Brutal force rams innocent lives
mostly others than white
why - why - why

Brutal police ruffles to keep order
not friendly at all
why - why - why

Brutality rules the streets in the US
rifles, guns, AK47
why - why - why

Brutal gang wars runs cities
money supports drugs
why - why - why

Brutal penury and needs
is a way of life
why - why - why

Brutal lack of education in cities
too many to a class room
why - why - why

Brutal lives of inhumanity
repeating the circle
why - why - why

Brutal racism in behavior
often in the powers
why - why- why

Brutal absence of empathy
in everyone all over
why- why - why

Brutal racism reigns here
and in the world
why - why -why

Brutal examples of hatred
kills from within
why - why- why


Saturday, June 06, 2020

Sadness acrostic

Screaming
about
demeaning
notes
eviscerated
sad
solemnity